Happy Now

I don't know if it's me or my childish mentality, but I want changes all the time. This time I have decided to keep writing my blog ... in English. And I will. I don't feel that professional in this language, but oh well, practice makes perfect, right?

So as some of you know I am a Lithuanian girl living in London. And luckily I had a chance to come back to my hometown Kaunas for Christmas period this year. You know, I was thinking a lot about all the changes in my life in these past few years... how does it feel? How do I feel? And you know, I feel really really good. Of course, my life is absolutely different now than it used to be. But probably that's why I like it.

If someone asked me to paint two paintings about my life in Lithuania and London I know that I would use absolutely different colors to show my feelings about it. One would be full of bright & dark colors, while the other one would consist only light colors. And as I was living 18 years and spent all my childhood in Lithuania, of course, when I think about it, I imagine my life there in all the lightest colors of the world. The Baltic Sea, nature, family, home, empty streets and etc. My colors for life in Lithuania are white, light blue, grey, yellow and green. While living in London for one year and a half all I can think about are red busses, grey streets full of different people, with their different roots from all the different countries of the world. So many different places to go and to visit in one city, that sometimes even too many and too far.

But the strangest thing is that in Lithuania i have all my family, lots of friends, but I always used to have a time only with myself, that lonely (good lonely) feeling, while in London I don't have that many good friends, to be honest I have maybe only three really good friends, but I never feel alone or lonely (except, when I am at my room). It is just that there are so many people in this crazy capital of the United Kingdom that you can never rest. But you can get use to it. I got use to it. And now I like it. But it happened only after one year. After traveling for holidays at Lithuania and after spending time with the most important people in my life I understood. I understood that I am happy now.

Hope you enjoy your last days of 2013.

Auste

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